12.01.99 - Wandering around the big city

I know, I know... it's been a while since I did a journal entry. Well, maybe not but I guess you're used to me doing fairly regular entries by now. You should however get used to these little breaks because I've been going into London a lot more recently. I'm really quite tired and the only solution I can think of to this is me either moving to London permanently or giving up all the fun things I do in London. I opt for the former rather than the latter but as you know I am still working on that.

I went to see "West Side Story" at the Prince Edward Theatre in London yesterday. Through a 'contact' we managed to get free tickets ('we' being me and a certain someone rather special to me right now. Hehe) and while I am not really into the theatre in a big way I decided I had never been to a musical before and it was an experience and well... I went. As it turned out I really enjoyed it and was surprised at how many of the songs I did know. The only down side was that I could only have time for one drink after the show before I had to catch the last train back home. I arrived back in my home town about ten minutes before 1am and there was freezing fog everywhere. As I walked home I could feel the cold and wet on my face and it was awful. My jacket was not thick enough and I thought I was going to pass out and be found the next morning frozen like an ice lolly with my eyes half open from being so tired. I managed to make it back home and shut the door quickly revelling in the relative warmth of the house. I moved my hand up to my hair to brush my fingers through it and I heard a 'crunch'. The freezing fog had frozen my hair crunchy! That's how cold it was, folks.

I was on the phone to said "mystery person" before dinner tonight and was asked when I was coming down to London again. My first instinct was to sigh although that would have given the completely wrong impression. I'm just exasperated by the need to be in London so much and having to travel in and make it back for work in the week. I also feel bad about leaving my family almost every weekend. I should make some time for them and if I go away again this weekend (which I am planning to do) then I will miss my sister and brother-in-law coming down AGAIN. All this organisation, travel, expense and physical exertion involved is wearing me out too. I think I must have virtually no stamina at all because I know people cope with much more dramatic events in their life on a regular basis and here I am stressing over the odd trip into London only 40 miles away. I do want to be in London though, where I have friends, people who I can have fun with, where there is almost anything you can think of to do in an evening and where I can feel love in a way other than that my family gives.

I feel so much better going into London now that I have my mobile phone back. I felt like a lost sheep wandering around the big city without it the last couple of times and now that I have it back I feel like I have been reconnected to some sort of backup mechanism that makes me feel safer when I am out and about. I am still a bit annoyed with the service I receive though. I switched the mobile phone on when I came home from work and ten minutes later it decides to tell me I have a message! I was told by a friend that you can wait up to 2 hours sometimes before a message comes through because of the network but I don't find that particularly acceptable. Anyway when (If!) I ever get a chance to look into getting a new mobile phone I will probably do so. Maybe I can look in Oxford Street in London on Saturday. I think they have a Carphone Warehouse there and I don't think they are affiliated with any one or two services so I should get some kind of impartial advice. I'm sure the salespeople will love me asking all these questions (or they'll completely hate me for being irritating and postponing a sale with all the contract smalltalk).

I feel the need to do something other than just sit on the computer all evening so I am ending this entry here. I probably have much, much more to tell you but you're probably asleep already and I need to get busy writing job letters and other stuff. If you haven't already, check out the "Britain & Twisted" webring set up by the gorgeously talented Polly!

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